sleepier than I should be at this time of day.

For some reason, it feels as if I should have changed more.

Nevertheless, I can't help but feel that things are fine the way they are.


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I know how I could do all this, but I don't want to do that.

This is stupid. Why am I doing this?

"You are wasted potential" is a rather awkward thing to feel.

The truth often makes things more awkward than they really have to be.


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For whatever reason, I can't wait for it to snow again, even though I dislike the cold. It's more for the aesthetics than anything else, I think.

I guess it isn't that bad, though. Changes are okay.


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"I wish I could take initiative more often" is a self-defeating statement.

This is not a good thing.


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No one was home all day. When my dad briefly stopped by to drop off dinner, I was told to dispatch all intruders without mercy. With lethal force. In order to defend my home.

I am prepared. The baseball bat is under my bed.

Nothing has happened.

(Secret wish: a crowbar. A big one.)

(Other secret wish: to hit something with it.)


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I dreamed I punched someone in the face. It was very vindicating.

I've never seriously punched anyone in the face before. I guess it's a good thing if I never have to.

I kind of do want to try, though.

Maybe not. Being punched in the face hurts, after all.

I just want the sensation of punching someone in the face, but without hurting them.

That's not really possible. I guess this whole tangent is pretty pointless.


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I could have gone outside. Why didn't I?


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I tried baseball the other day. It is not a talent of mine.

Oh well.


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Whenever I'm bored, I get this urge to vomit my feelings all over the Internet like so much half-digested food.

The reception will be similar, as the whole gesture is both unwanted and really disgusting.

So I don't.

That is why this is pointless.



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This house is really quiet without anyone in it.

Not to the point where it is eerie; after all, the soft hum of electronics keeps me company when I feel alone.

Is that strange?

I didn't mean it.


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The thing is, it's probably not as terrible as I make it out to be.


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"It can't be that bad. You're one of the lucky ones, after all."

Smile more. It looks better on you.

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I haven't screamed in quite a while.

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If I had something to say, I'd probably use paragraphs.

aaaaaaahhhhhhh

You know that feeling when you're not actually hungry, but you really, really want to eat?

Yeah.

Looking at recipes and pictures of food doesn't help.

Looking at the calorie counts makes me want to eat them more. :|

christmas on the internet.

>spend Christmas on /r9k/
>don't even post, just lurk
>can't even bring self to post on most beta board on the Internet
>aloneforever.jpg
>;_;

On the bright side, the new USB is shaped like a penguin!

Other bright sides: turkey.

Merry Christmas/happy holidays/season's greetings/etc, everyone!

20sentences.

From Facebook. You're supposed to answer with the first thing that comes to your mind...?

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1. I'm a... little bit (something).

2. Someday, I want... to learn how to inline skate (because I just reread Air Gear).

3. There are... things that could happen, but won't.

4. There aren't... any people here for a reason.

5. I can't stand... up if you hit me too hard, you know.

6. I wish... that it really was that easy, just wishing.

7. I don't know... a lot of things.

8. I want... to be sure of this.

9. When I see... you smile, it's just a little bit contagious.

10. Only when...

11. I need... a few things.

12. I love... being happy.

13. I hate... milk.

14. Why can't... genre savviness be more applicable in reality?

15. I wonder... what happens, after.

16. I'm sad... on rare occasions.

17. I'm happy... when you are.

18. I don't need... air.

19. I can't... answer these questions that honestly.

20. I believe... in uncertainty.

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In other news, I may have grown half an inch. :D

Must stop avoiding commentary now.

this is so terrible.

SO TERRIBLE.

for terrible people.

This is bad and you should feel bad.

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In fact, it's terrible.

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What a waste.

Disregard it.

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In other news, my math average dropped six percent with one test. I was almost impressed.

My French average is also sad. It is even sadder than my math average because it is a c-c-c-combo breaker.

However, what I truly regret to inform you is:
I have failed Lunch. :c

Someone tutor me? It's really hard, I don't get it at all...

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Really, there's nothing to talk about. I'm posting because I want to get that other thing off the top of my blog.

ARCT is hard. Sonata Pathetique is going to give me carpal tunnel syndrome. Also, the books are ridiculously expensive and I have to buy everything separately.

Nylons are hard to put on and easy to make holes in.

Time is easy to lose but hard to find, much like...

... the gummy bear vitamins that were dropped and ran away. :c I hope they find a better life... under the table... or wherever they are now.

Godspeed, gummy bears. I wish you all the best.

I was going to say some things, but instead, have some funny stories.

My mother is now experiencing the feeling of 'my mom friended me on Facebook, WHAT DO.'

Yes, my grandmother just got Facebook.

She is interested in "whatever she can get."

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Someone carded my dad at some store (again). He (the clerk) was genuinely confused. I don't understand how; my dad had shaved that day, but, seriously, the guy's balding and has grey hair. He's also forty-three. It is not hard to tell.

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In the same vein, a window installation guy mistook my dad for my brother. A classmate has also mistaken my grandmother for my mom. (No, not the one that has Facebook. That one looks appropriately grandmother-like.)

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Does anyone know any good place to get steady volunteer hours? Like... a volunteer 'job'.

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Anyone like MMORPGs? COME PLAY MABINOGI WITH MEEEEEE IT IS AN AWESOME GAME. 8D If you want I will be lame and post screenshots.

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Rachel's cruise ship sounded fun. :o I want to go on a cruiseeeee.

Oh, is anyone good with alphametrics? Like...

       THERE

       THERE

      STRIKE

+     THREE

   MATCHES

 

  SEVEN

  THREE

     ONE

      NIL

+    NIL

ELEVEN

    PLEASE

         USE

         ALL

+  LOWER

    SPEEDS

      SUSIES

      SISTER

       SISSIE

          SKIS

             IN

+    SUSIES

     BIKINIS

Each letter represents a different digit. Same letter equals same digit. If anyone can solve one before I do, I'll buy them a free bubble tea on our epic public transit adventure!

No, I'm not covertly trying to get anyone to do my SMS homework for me because I'm too lazy/stupid to do it myself. What are you talking about?

School tomorrow. D: SUMMER WHERE DID YOU GO.

Also I passed my piano exam with an 82. I now feel guilty, as this was the score I achieved after two years, while other people, after practicing for only a year, were able to achieve high nineties.

Thought of the day.

When I realized I was eating aborted chickens, eggs suddenly became that much more delicious.

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Yes, that's all.

I'm so bored.

... and there's nothing I want to do.

How do I get out more?

no news is good news

and it's not like I have any, anyways.

re: uhm.

I had a post written, but subsequently decided self-mockery would be more amusing.

Thus, here is the condensed version of the post you do not see:

"I am not deep because I am boring lol."

I should have just practiced piano instead; exam's the day after tomorrow.

some things I have wanted to say for a while but unfortunately this is reality

This started out serious, but it kind of devolved:

4. I'm sorry I lied.
5. I'm not sorry I lied.
6. Well, yes, I lied. Who wouldn't?
7. I'm happy you didn't notice that I lied.
8. I'm disappointed that you didn't notice that I lied.
9. It's kind of funny that you didn't notice that I lied but I'm lying right now so it would be rather strange to laugh.
10. I LIED, MOTHERFUCKER.

... yeah.

Maybe I'll try again next time.

so I didn't think you would notice this.

If you did, thanks, I guess.

So, um, we might as well start. I'm not very good at expressing myself honestly, but it's so easy to lie.

But in light of all the uselessly sentimental (you're lying, aren't you? You always are, and stop it I can see straight through you it's disgusting how you all act - ) revelations that have been posted recently...

... I don't know. See, I told you so, it would be better if I lied. "I love you guys all so much." "You mean the world to me." Feed them the lines and they'll spit out the results. It's so predictable, except for when it isn't.

Maybe I'm a sociopath, but probably not. This normal, right? Normal, it has to be, that's how I am...

... so I think it would be better if we just - we're all just growing up.

Because it can't be helped.

That's how it is.

- because it would be better that way. It's fine, right?

We can still change.

Help.

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Disclaimer: The above was all a lie. This was a social experiment. I'm just bored, really. Really. (Any resemblance to persons living or dead is coincidental and should be ignored, and I'm sane in reality you should see me in real life I am the sanest and most honest person you will ever meet this is not a lie.)

um. Really. No. Seriously. I'm sane. And, uh. Honest. In real life. Really, so. Yeah.

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Happy, uh, August Fool's?

I have absolutely no excuse for this.

It is today,

as it usually is.

So today
was okay.

Oh, look, a poem.

I should probably work now.

That was useless.