Nevertheless, I can't help but feel that things are fine the way they are.
I know how I could do all this, but I don't want to do that.
This is stupid. Why am I doing this?
"You are wasted potential" is a rather awkward thing to feel.
The truth often makes things more awkward than they really have to be.
For whatever reason, I can't wait for it to snow again, even though I dislike the cold. It's more for the aesthetics than anything else, I think.
I guess it isn't that bad, though. Changes are okay.
"I wish I could take initiative more often" is a self-defeating statement.
This is not a good thing.
No one was home all day. When my dad briefly stopped by to drop off dinner, I was told to dispatch all intruders without mercy. With lethal force. In order to defend my home.
I am prepared. The baseball bat is under my bed.
Nothing has happened.
(Secret wish: a crowbar. A big one.)
(Other secret wish: to hit something with it.)
I dreamed I punched someone in the face. It was very vindicating.
I've never seriously punched anyone in the face before. I guess it's a good thing if I never have to.
I kind of do want to try, though.
Maybe not. Being punched in the face hurts, after all.
I just want the sensation of punching someone in the face, but without hurting them.
That's not really possible. I guess this whole tangent is pretty pointless.
I could have gone outside. Why didn't I?
I tried baseball the other day. It is not a talent of mine.
Oh well.
Whenever I'm bored, I get this urge to vomit my feelings all over the Internet like so much half-digested food.
The reception will be similar, as the whole gesture is both unwanted and really disgusting.
So I don't.
That is why this is pointless.
This house is really quiet without anyone in it.
Not to the point where it is eerie; after all, the soft hum of electronics keeps me company when I feel alone.
Is that strange?
I didn't mean it.
The thing is, it's probably not as terrible as I make it out to be.
"It can't be that bad. You're one of the lucky ones, after all."
Smile more. It looks better on you.
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I haven't screamed in quite a while.
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If I had something to say, I'd probably use paragraphs.